Farewell

What thoughts cross
A mother’s mind
As she watched her son die
A policeman’s bullet
In his heart
As she fumbles for words
To express
Love she had taken for granted
Love she thought was permanent
Trying hard to recapture
All those moments
Trying so hard to smile
To say something appropriate
For one last time.

Painful Void

I will not cry
They say I am cold
I’d like to be.
Instead of this nothingness
Over powering me
I cannot think
For ….
My heart would bleed
You ….
Are my every need.
No use for people
Mere happy smiling faces
Nothing to smile at
Or ….
Have I gone mad
Oh!
Anything I’d welcome even hurt
Than this nothingness
Empty ache
I’m cold
It’s just a façade
I love too much
I give my all
I cannot take
A bare existence
I’m too weak
A coward
I’m cold
I have to forget.